Saturday, October 07, 2006

Little Hitler

I was not a bully but when it came to M, I couldn't help it. She was a fat kid with a fatter younger sister, fair skinned with 2 coconut trees on her head, had rich parents and whined a lot.

One of my negative qualities that beats all others is not having enough patience. With certain people. This quality has been with me since childhood. So M wanted to hang around with us in school. I didn't care even if she did but I didn't like her yellow nails. They were untidy and stained yellow. Her right hand particularly. I remember asking her if food in her house had a lot of turmeric and if she ate with her hand for hours thus staining her ugly nails. I wonder how she passed the weekly inspections in school.

Oh, I remember she also had yellow teeth with layers of dirt. Like you didn't ever use a brush on them. It grossed the hell out of me. But I didn?t say anything to her about that.

Another of my quality is that I always attract people I do not like. The same people I have no patience for. M followed me around a lot. As a roly poly kid, she couldn't run about much, and when she sometimes tried to climb the walls and slide down the banisters after me, she hurt herself.

And then I remember the most wicked thing I loved doing. I would ask her to place her foot on a small step we had near the door of our classroom. She would do as told and I would stamp my tiny little foot on hers with a thud. She would yell in pain while I laughed and ran away. I could be a cruel child straight out of Lord of the Flies. She never complained and I got away with it all the time. Well, all the time because, she was stupid enough to let me do it everyday.

Sometimes I think back and wonder how I could have been so evil. While my mother proudly narrates stories of a rare kindness and sensitivity I possessed as a child, I keep wondering what brought about this freaky mean streak with M. I really owe M an apology. Sometime back I met her and recounted it all with due regret and guilt. She seemed to have no idea what I was talking about. She only remembers good times with me and how I have been a great friend to her.

I am thinking how some people can put even a dog to shame when it comes to loyalty.

49 Comments:

Blogger Ajeya said...

Sorry to hear of your loss in your previous post. People never cease to surprise, no?

4:07 PM  
Blogger Prerona said...

:)

thank god i didnt meet u when i was a kid - ur just the kind of person who still petrifies me enough to keep away from big social circles

lol. dont get mad sweetie. just kidding ..

4:38 PM  
Blogger jhantu said...

Its a dogs world after all

10:13 PM  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Oh... she must be stupid even now! In her place, I would have insisted that you had deeply hurt my feelings (besides my little foot) then and to make me feel better you must take me out on a grand treat for weeks! :D

Good to have such nice friends around you. As Jhantu says, it is a dog's world after all

5:13 AM  
Blogger Sangita said...

Woho..quite an experience..Good that u can remeber and vent out ur feelings ..And best is gal remeber only good times with u so some relief it is ain't it

5:19 PM  
Blogger V N said...

that was a short trip down nostalgia lane... :) made great reading!!!
:)

8:09 PM  
Blogger Tulan said...

Great reading as usual. but no one would believe after reading these post that u would be so evil. i mean u r so funny, sensitive, so humble and really loving person. Well anyways hope u r not doing the samething to your hubby.

8:49 PM  
Anonymous Ash said...

:)

Honestly, I think all little kids have a that slight cruel streak.

I remember having a friend like your M. I never liked her, athough I was too shy to hurt her physically .. I did howver get together with two other friends and wrote her a pretty nasty letter. We were such snooty b*****s ! I flinch when I think of how mean we were ...

1:55 AM  
Blogger venkat said...

Hope M is not letting people run all over her still.I know kids are sometimes cruel,horrible and mean.Thank God, People do change and become kind,sweet,adorable and friendly adults.

11:49 AM  
Blogger anumita said...

ajeya: You bet, I wasnt even sure she would want to meet me. But she was looking forward to it.

prerona: I didn't bully anybody else. Dont know what it was about M.

jhantu: Dog's world with a few other species sprinkled in :)

sudipta: You are right. But she's too dumb probably and didn't notice the torture. But I am of course not trying to be extra nice to her now else she might be disappointed :)

sangita: There are all kinds. There are people who have been nasty to me too but the differece is I dont forget and keep away from them.

velu: Thanks, Velu.

tulan: Thank you. No one would recognize me even if they see me in real. For the writer is probably much different than the person I am.

ash: Yes. Kids can be cruel. Am so glad you too felt the same towards someone. Some of my childhood antics can make me quite a freak actually.

venkat: Surprisingly M has a husband wrapped around her little finger. No, she's smart, pretty and a working mother now.

1:47 PM  
Blogger Mukta said...

Hmm,

I wonder why all Ms meet people like you in childhood. he he he!

2:46 PM  
Blogger Tulan said...

well i was hoping that u and writer of the blog would be one and the same personalities. hope i am right. U sound like a nice person as a write and also very funny so dont change.

7:49 PM  
Blogger Priyanka Mahanta said...

That was a cute, funny one. But yes, I guess we all do some kind of this nasty stuff as kids. I was very shy and quiet as a kid and everyone used to bully me around, including my younger sister. But Delhi has taught me to be street-smart enuf to keep the bullies at bay. No one tries messing around with me anymore...

7:56 PM  
Anonymous Stone said...

All abt the way of looking at it!!
I'm sure you guys must have had 100s of nice memories too;
And M choose to remember the good ones :-)

10:46 PM  
Blogger Grey Shades said...

A lesson well learnt I hope :) I'm sure they dont make ppl like your friend M anymore...

10:49 AM  
Blogger Swathi said...

i guess everyone has their kiddo secrets, stamping on the toes, pulling the pig tails, making fun of others etc etc, yaa yaa as kids we r so much fun when we r a lille impish :)

11:23 AM  
Blogger word_smith said...

so on and so forth..
remembered feet and forgotten stomps..
or forgotten feet and remembered stomps...
loyalty and deciet,cruelty and kindness..
we go on through these paradoxes..
how i hate pontificating..and yet i just did it....

u write well though.loved your narrative style.

4:12 PM  
Anonymous sherriff said...

hard to believe it is the same "anumita" i have been reading since last one year

4:40 PM  
Blogger GettingThereNow said...

WHOA Anumita! Who woulda thunk!! :D

10:18 PM  
Blogger Truth Fairy said...

Lol! I was the same way! There was this girl Munni who lived next door and I would torture her everyday and she would still follow me everywhere and do everything I did. :)

11:20 PM  
Blogger anumita said...

mukta: Are you pointing at M people in my life? :)

tulan: I hope so too. I believe I am actually nice.

priyanka: I have been an obedient kid on my own trip mostly, but I guess didnt like being told what to do.

stone: I must have done good things I am sure. I am usually such a do gooder. But why dont I remember it now?

grey shades: Maybe they do. Maybe they just dont make people like me anymore :)

swathi: I am told I was the quiet, sharp one with an overactive brain and witty solutions to everything. Can you imagine how irritating that can be?

word_smith: Thank you. I think you put it down very well.

sherriff: Am I disappointing you?

gettingtherenow: Gee! I am wondering about the clean image I seem to have been portraying all this time!

truth fairy: How about now? Does munni remember anything?

3:16 PM  
Blogger MellowDrama said...

Oh BOY! And I thought I was nasty. But I agree I think there is no creature more cruel on earth than kids. Seriously, am sure most of us can dig out one such incident frm our past:) I think I have lost the talent of attracting irritating people..hurrah for small mercies

4:35 PM  
Blogger sinusoidally said...

Oh my God you were so evil! The reason she only remembers good times with you is probably because her brain has blocked out the bad times...Oh that poor child.

1:05 AM  
Blogger Grey Shades said...

Oh but they do! Atleast the bully-version of you! ;)

9:16 AM  
Blogger Tulan said...

Poor anumita, she is gonna hear from everyone now that everyone knows she is a little hitler. but dont worry anumita not everyone thinks that :-)

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8:11 PM  
Anonymous Gaizabonts said...

Sorry, off topic. You have been tagged. Details here

5:27 AM  
Anonymous Gangadhar said...

Another of my quality is that I always attract people I do not like....haha..Here too the same....

12:05 PM  
Blogger V N said...

have a great week ahead!!
:)

7:18 AM  
Blogger itchingtowrite said...

so u r one of those who manage to attract the chipkoo boring lot!! must hav learnt the art of teh dodge.. worst is those chipkoos will be so nice to u that u feel like a monster by trying to dodge them

11:03 AM  
Anonymous amitken said...

i relate to it somehow, even now.

though i consider myself to be generally peaceful and full of patience with all kind of ppl, some people bring the worst out of me, and I can't stand them at all.... to extent of ignoring their presence around me.

2:15 AM  
Blogger ... said...

I had a kid like that in my class. Fortunately, I wasn't her target, but I always felt sorry for the other kids who were bullied by her.

Anyways, you atleast feel sorry now. That should count :-)

2:16 PM  
Blogger antonym said...

Next time you see M, stamp on her foot and say, "Remember NOW?"

4:58 PM  
Blogger Shankar said...

She must be innately kind to have not remembered that, or, maybe she did, but didn't mind to mention it so as to make you feel worse, which is kinder.

She deserves a medallion in my book :)

9:49 AM  
Anonymous shub said...

Post already!

8:40 AM  
Anonymous Born a Libran said...

I have this theory that nostalgia brings out most of the good memories while the bad ones are buried deep down inside so that u dont find them unless u really want to... I think it makes us feel good about ourselves...

10:17 PM  
Blogger Varsha said...

Meanness during childhood is really ok..probably it was never too much for her to remember...or that she is a very forgiving/forgetful gal!!

3:32 PM  
Blogger Sangita said...

Long tme no see?? Wish u a happy diwali

10:52 AM  
Blogger manoj said...

no post for a long time...

9:10 PM  
Blogger Kapil said...

Was wondering where have u been lost?

3:10 PM  
Blogger Pallavi said...

its always nice walking down memory lane..

2:12 PM  
Blogger Manny said...

Each friend represents a microcosm of values and character in us,a microcosm that is unseen to ourselves until they come into our lives and then leave. But then again most kids are cruel before they grow up.

1:53 AM  
Blogger V N said...

No update????
:(

12:06 PM  
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Anonymous Twilight Fairy said...

OT - whats up? kahan hai aap? I can see your blog break as big as mine :p :)

12:18 PM  
Blogger pegasus said...

ii guess loyalty comes with having a simple mind. the more the person thinks and is capable of taking decisions for himself.. the more narcissist he becomes

4:58 PM  
Blogger sanguine said...

oye .. guess who ??

6:31 PM  
Blogger Sangita said...

Hey where are you??Longgg since any blog updates

1:07 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

where be u??

bips

8:58 PM  
Blogger anumita said...

mellowdrama: I think even I have lost the talent or rather others have gained it. Now others too find me irritating!

sinusoidally: No idea why she doesn't remember but nothing poor about her!

grey shades: So glad to hear that!

tulan: Thanks tulan!!

gaizabonts: Will get to the tag next.

gangadhar: Thanks for the company!

velu: thanks dude!

itchingtowrite: The problem is I dont even feel bad till it gets real bad.

amitken: You are right. I feel the same.

...: Does it count... feeling bad now? After being so mean?

antonym: Hahaha! That's the best thing I have read! I so want to do that!

shankar: Who knows. But dont I deserve anything for saying sorry publicly now?

shub: yes yes.

born a libran: I think you are right. I have so many nice memories and they surely couldn't have been all that nice :)

varsha: I think she's a stupid girl!

pallavi: So right.

sangita, manoj, kapil, velu, twilight fairy: Coming up.

mandy: Hmmm... maybe. That was deep and thoughtful.

pegasus: Are you calling me narcissistic?

sanguine: Good to see you around.

Bips: Am right here. for good.

12:13 PM  

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