Monday, March 05, 2007


It was Holi again and the usual revelry took place. Only this time after eating and drinking too much I fell into an abyss of sleep. Somehow things are not the same anymore. I cannot do without so many things. My sleep, the right food. I abuse any of it and the results are not too pretty.

I live on a plane that seems so removed. I no longer find pleasure in all that I used to. Sometimes the things that excite my friends piss me off or I find them silly. Some time back close friends visited with a one year old kid. Very smart baby. Can talk in single syllable which so thrills the parents. The mother, my close friend says, "Have you noticed, how well behaved she is. She doesn't fling sofa cushions on the floor like other kids."

"Yes, yes, I noticed that." I assured just in time to hold out my palm for the mobile phone the little one was smashing on my center table. And silently I wonder how my bedsheets, sofas, doors and windows, have all got smeared with tiny handprints of melted chocolate. While I give up and smile, the parents just run around with the camera clicking silly shots of a messy with chocolate kid.

Yes, these are the things a lot of my friends are occupied with nowaday. Other than whipping out a boob even in public whenever a baby protests and cries for it.

And then what about the jokes that the world finds so funny they laugh like hyenas while I watch whose mouth is bigger and whose teeth can start scraping coconuts. The other day, we had a spiritual lecture. A serious discussion where we were asked not to hold back, told to sit without folding arms in front, to let go and laugh when we felt like it. And some did exactly that. Whatever was said, they found it funny and rolled over in mirth. And I started getting irritated with all the laughing.

And on Holi, I watched my neighbour rub a handful of colour all over her friend's husband's face and giggle away. They both laughed really loud and I watched in disgust from my 8th floor balcony. I didn't find it funny again.


Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

All I can say is: take it easy. I can see why some things you mentioned were irritable, and I know that they just get on our nerves. You see, some people just don't conform to our beliefs. But so long as one does not step into someone else's territory, it should be acceptable. Maybe you will find people who share your feelings and thoughts and will be happier sharing your thoughts with them.

11:49 AM  
Blogger Mukta said...

hey anumita!

How are you? Come to delhi na! I am great. Just started on a job since two days and would LOVE to talk to you! E-mail me your number at

How's your darling niece. My love to her and greetings to your hubby. Both of you please come!

1:47 PM  
Blogger Unmana said...

I feel that way often enough. And wonder if I'm going old or I was never young enough!

2:57 PM  
Blogger Chakra Sampath said...

It think its just the moodswings.

7:47 PM  
Blogger Neville said...

Ah! Angst. It's not our fault. The French suffered during WWII and created a genre called existentialism. It's your turn now to do it out of exasperation toward all the ones who don't have a brain. I know what you mean. It boils my blood to see 18 year olds in Mocha, spending papa's money, discussing the merits of the latest song by Justin. Who type u for you. Man, it boils my blood. So you are not alone. But here's a joke that will cheer you up.

Two peanuts walked into a bar. One was assalted. (The spelling is to help you get the joke.)

4:10 PM  
Blogger Swathi said...

only the other day i was arguing with a friend of mine that as we grow older we become more finicky 'bout a lot of things and this post seems to reflect my sentiments..

btw, Happy Woman's Day.

10:48 AM  
Blogger Minal said...

yay. yay. You're back!

4:00 PM  
Blogger Sangita said...

Not sure how to react..U pose difficult questions for sure ;-) It's always good indulging in something one love's..So do that and let the world around u go mad :-D

4:24 PM  
Anonymous Twilight Fairy said...

(off topic)
did u get my mail? Sent it on ur yahoo id.

5:28 PM  
Blogger Ajeya said...

I dunno anumita, different people get their kicks from different things. that should be alright right?

7:25 AM  
Blogger Arunima said...

it happens. Many of my colleagues are expecting babies and all the time somebody or the other talk about the Ultrasound or kids. I feel like dying a spinster at times.

12:39 PM  
Anonymous kamala said...

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2:12 PM  
Anonymous Gaizabonts said...

I could 'so' relate to the chocolate paw-prints!!!

the way i look at it - the speed at which we drive through life changes - some like a place and choose to stay back - some speed away. Communicating then, without context, becomes that much difficult.

5:57 PM  
Blogger Stone said...

Eggzactly same thing I hate about my neighbours, at her own home she keeps her kids in check, and at our home she never stops them they are all over the house spilling everything/ spoiling everything, though wifey tolerates all that with a smile but that irritates me a lot!!

5:24 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey look who's back...i had almost given up! yeah...i went thru that phase myself...and realised that i have overgrown the life i led and it was time for a fresh new cycle...though still dont know what this new cycle holds!!


8:50 PM  
Blogger Mellowdrama said...

lol...are they still your 'close' friends? I have this theory - parents who do not discipline their kids are raising future junkies:)

Am perfectly okay with a kid picking up stuff and fiddling around with things but parents with destructive kids can go jump, along with their progeny - preferably down a deep well.

Usually I clear out the few breakable knick-knacks I have and it works out fine.

Cheer up

3:09 PM  
Blogger GettingThereNow said...

Hey! You were missed. Welcome back!

I share your irritation with over-indulgent parents. Sometimes I feel like you do - irritated when people find every damn thing funny - even when it is not. I thought it was just me :D

9:46 PM  
Anonymous Melody said...

Feel the same way sometimes - most of my friends are married with babies / infants & I'm still single.

Then again, I'm no longer the person I used to be either.

It's all about embracing change I think...

Btw, nice to see you back at it!

10:44 PM  
Blogger anumita said...

sudipta: Taking it easy. Just my thoughts.

mukta: How are you? I really miss you! I will write.

unmana: You are you. Nothing to do with being old or young :)

chakra: Maybe.

neville: Good joke!! Thanks for joining me :)

swathi: You are right. Am turning into my mom day by day!

minal: Thanks :)

sangita: Dont react or think much :) Just some stray thoughts. How are you doing?

twilight fairy: Still waiting for your mail :(

ajeya: Of course. I am also getting a kick out of expressing it all.

arunima: I know what you mean.

kamala: I always wondered who it was that came to my blog everytime through a search on Manoribell! Now I know. Thanks Kamala. I would write to you if I had your id.

gaizabonts: I dont know. I sometimes seem to be a really difficult person, even to myself.

stone: I know, I know what you mean. But I can understand your wife smiling too. I do that too cause you can never be angry with children.

bips: Please tell me more!

mellowdrama: They ARE close friends and I love the kid. And I learnt to hand over the father's phone (which is similar to mine) to the child when she is on a banging spree!

gettingtherenow: Thanks. How are you doing?

melody: Thanks. You are right. Embracing change is what is needed.

6:42 PM  
Blogger Priyanka Mahanta said...

ya, kids are cute little devils and some are real angels. I love the angels and master in making the devils run to their moms for mercy.

9:49 PM  
Blogger Namrata Goswami said...

hehe, people think you are being hard on yourself after such a great post. You commute with a bunch of idiots eh:)

10:30 PM  
Anonymous Vinita said...

My first time on your blog. Most of us do feel this way... sort of alienated from the rest of the society.. where we cant seem to relate to many people. As we get more absorbed in our work and sometimes QLC (quarter life crisis) and things dont seem to interest us as they did when we were lil kids it frustrates us. Yes most of us do feel this way.And most of us are looking for answers.

4:44 AM  

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